Hey guys, well... In contradiction to my previous few posts, I know these will come as a shock to you all. But, I decided that, I'm no good, and I'm just like that flower... A dying one amongst the merry ones. I thought about this, and I know what I'm doing... Yes it's due to depression, and I know it's drastic, but my conscience is clear. I don't.. really belong anywhere, and I'm meant to be alone... I'm just, not the person to go about. So, guys, do take care, I'm still having the party on the 4th June, but that will be the last, please do come, and make it a meaningful one for me. Thanks all of you.. I really like you all. You're the one that lift me up, but I just can't hold on tight enough to it. Thank you, and good bye.
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Just my piece of mind..
Hey guys, well... In contradiction to my previous few posts, I know these will come as a shock to you all. But, I decided that, I'm no good, and I'm just like that flower... A dying one amongst the merry ones. I thought about this, and I know what I'm doing... Yes it's due to depression, and I know it's drastic, but my conscience is clear. I don't.. really belong anywhere, and I'm meant to be alone... I'm just, not the person to go about. So, guys, do take care, I'm still having the party on the 4th June, but that will be the last, please do come, and make it a meaningful one for me. Thanks all of you.. I really like you all. You're the one that lift me up, but I just can't hold on tight enough to it. Thank you, and good bye.
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Nah, it is not a contradiction, and no, this is not a shock because you are a human. (I would actually doubt someone's sanity if they are happy 24/7) I am more relieved that you actually let it all out, trust us with your vulnerability, than to remain strong and 'happy' when you are depressed inside.
Remember, remember what you told me when we first entered college? That you want to try, to give out all your best. Why not be strong for your sake, for once, instead of always keeping up a facade that you are alright?
Dying amongst the merry. Don't let yourself wilt, then. Shower yourself with love and care, do something you enjoy, make yourself happy. You know it, and I know that you know it. What's stopping you? Don't be so judgmental and critical of yourself. Was it because the expectations that you set towards things are too high? You are good for something, or I won't remember all the positive things you had done for me to lift my spirits up.
From here I quote from the book I had given you, I don't know if you bothered to read it, "Who is it that you compare yourself to? Do you realize that each time you compare yourself with others or even the self that you used to be, you are diminishing your own self-worth? When you stop comparing, you will see that what you already are right now is just perfect just as it is.
There is no need to change who you are and who you are not is the first step towards the right direction of self-improvement. Your heart knows , and will naturally take its own course of action. Improvement comes from love, comparison from lack."
At this moment, you belong to a place in my heart called 'friend'. I am sure that others here would agree. No one, is meant to be left behind when they are going through the most difficult part of their life, unless you are the kind of stubborn person who insist of letting your hand go when others tries really hard to stretch their hands towards you. (no offense)
I have no right to judge you, since I am not you, and only you know yourself best. I am not with you for this whole six months of time, and I did not know what had actually happen to you, but don't be so depressed. I could only advice you and let you make your own decision. Just don't give up on yourself before others do.
*By the way, since I can't come for this last time, means I can't step into your house forever la?
That's a good reply wan mei, and i agree too.
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